Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
Not happy at all. Seems she doesn't want to eat dinner w/ me tonight :~( I'm so tired of having my emotion control by everything she does. Doesn't this sound familiar? I think if we check back a month or two ago, I basically said the same thing. All was changed by the Christmas phone call. But all could change again when Valentine comes around. Then again, seriously doubt that I will be spending any part of Valentine's day w/ her. I'll be either in Taiwan or she'll just brush me aside like today. Oh well, I'm just glad that slowly my self control is coming back. My boss is right, I'm so distracted last couple of months, hopefully this'll be over real soon.

BTW, my former boss told me that he asked her if shed had a significant other, she just kinda didn't answer the question and moved on w/ the conversation. She did mention that she had a lot of guy friends. Ha, do I know it. Maybe there'll be a layoff, and either she or I will get RIF and then I won't have to worry about this any more. I am so EVIL.

Don't know how I was able to focus myself on other thing thru the last 7 years, and how did I lose that when she came into my life. Actually, it really should be my friend's fault. Wasn't for her wedding, it would never happen. 'Cause I been telling myself for the 1st 7 months of last year that I don't care and I'm concentrating on something else. But then, her wedding really stir up some emotion hidden deeply within me and here we are.

The one great thing about this whole mess is that it gave me motivation to workout and run. Now my body should improve dramatically over the next few months and then my birthday comes and all thing WILL be OVER. YEAH, can't wait until september. LALALA...
posted by HELL at 21:35