Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
It's been a long time since I updated here. Well, few things happen, some good, some bad, most are just making me mad:) Pick her last Sunday, she thanked me by taking me out for dinner, good. Had pearl tea afterward, good. Show me her glamour photos, good. Show me her photos from college w/ a lot of guys, bad. Didn't really explain why she went to Austin, bad. Saw a particular guy w/ her in multiple formals, bad. Realized how much fun she had in college and how small part I'm of her life, real bad. Once again, I realized how little I knew about her life prior to last year, how little I'm of value to her, and how little I had of my self-confidence in front of her :( sigh...

On Monday, I called her to tell her about possible iternary for her trip back to Chicago, (she had asked me earlier about looking for some cheap tix price) I got brushed off w/ one sentence. She would rather watch Joe Millionaire than talking to me. Thank god it was raining and I was able to get a good jog out of it.

Today, I reminded her of her tax problem (just like any fresh out-of-college-kid-with-no-prior-work-experience, she put down 3 for her W-4 exemption), she realized how much financial trouble she was in. I told her before that she would face this problem but she just won't listen to me. Fool!!! Now, she'll suffer thru a couple months of not being able to buy anything she wanted. I guess I just hadn't done enough to show her that I know about this world and how it works. Stupid girl, only if she would listen to me once in a while.

Oh well, if the rumor is true, she'll probably be gone by the end of next month. So I'll probably try to keep her as a token female friend and move on w/ my life. But I'll need to really regain my self control and retain my peace of mind soon.

Let's see what happen when I'm in Taiwan.
posted by HELL at 22:19