Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
So she's back from her nice little vacation in Chicago. However, no email responding to my nice gesture of offering to pick her up from airport, no phone call, no respond to my inquiry about a possible Costco trip (my supplies are low). No contact of any kind. I guess she's busy helping somebody else move. I guess I just don't do enough for her. Why am I not surprise by all of these, I been expecting something like it just from the way she been talking over the last week or so before her departure to Chicago. Just one thing I want to know, and I REALLY REALLY WANT TO ASK: "WHO AM I TO YOU?" But I'm calming down a lot more, there is less heartache than the last few times she ignored me. I think I'm really getting used to this whole thing. One day, I shall have my victory :) I don't really know what the victory will be of, don't even know what to expect, but I'll know it when I experience it. Hopefully it's me finally getting over her FOR GOOD. I would love nothing better than that.

Still have to ask her to see the producer musical, since it's the only thing left that I promised myself that I'll do for her :) So glad that I didn't promise myself anymore things for her. Plus, she could be gone from my life for good by the end of next month, if she get RIFed. We shall see, we shall see. In any case, I had planned out a few scenerios on how to ask her and how to respond to her answer. Although, I'm still not sure how I should respond if she rejected me. I'm try to find a balance between showing her my fraustration at this whole mess and trying to be a gentleman. Hmm, a hard balance to reach. I still have a few more days to think about this though.

BTW, she still owe me one nice japanese lunch. I'm not sure right now that I will even go. Hopefully, I'll have the strength when the time comes to reject her invitation. Doubt that. Everytime, she acted cute and ask me to do something for her, I'll become a pathatic fool and pretty much obey her command. Damn, snap out of it. Got to get some more music about when angles deserve to die.
posted by HELL at 21:22