Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
Ok, a few interesting things happen today. So let's get started.

So my ex-boss and I had lunch today. He told me that many at work had inquire about the relationship between me and her. I told him that there really isn't anything between the two of us (which is true) and I don't really give a damn what anybody else think about us. I'm going to continue doing what I feel like it, just completely oblivious to the rumors out there at work. Hopefully she could do the same as well.

Went to get taro ball and Costco with her. BTW, her dad, mom, and sister were looking for her 'cause they were worry about her. She had been complaining about work and telling anyone whose willing to listen that she's afraid of the RIF. Also, (and here is the really funny part) they were worry about her getting taken away to confinement 'cause she's asian and she could be potentially expose to SARS. What kind family would believe in something like that??? It's just so typical of mass hysteria. So typical of asian family. In fact, they're a bit worse than the typical asian family that's so susceptible to false info and mass hysteria. It just cracks me up...:))

She end up calling her mom on cell phone. However, she did block out my phone # with the *67 option (I didn't even remember it until I check the phone #). So she obviously don't want her mom to know my phone # or my name (she asked that if the phone is registered under my name). There are two plausible hypothesis: 1) She didn't want her parent to even know my existence, she either sees no need for her parent to get to know me or she really don't like me and making sure that her parent will never find out about me :( 2)She didn't really want her parent to know the # 'cause she didn't want her parent to be calling me if they couldn't find her, just as a courtesy or don't think I'm worthy of getting into her inner circle. Either one of the hypothesis is possible, however I'm more leaning on the 2nd one for the moment. Not that any of these matters to me, seriously. When I went to discuss this with my sister and friend, they both thought it wasn't such a big deal and I'm putting more weight on it than necessary. Hmm, am I just a bit too sensitive on this subject? Although, they (sister and friend) did miss one part of the info that I didn't really feel like sharing, which is that her parent had at least one of the guys' phone #, possibly all. sigh... One thing kinda saddens me is the fact that after all these stuff I did for her, I'm still not good enough for her to get into her inner circle. I'm not that depress, just felt that I had failed this time. I just couldn't get deeper into her social structure. My place in her mind is very small, probably just another dumb guy who is willing to be taken advantage by her... So I'm a fool, I thing we established that a while back already. Then again, at this point in time, I just don't really care how she feels about me anymore. I'm only doing this a practice run and getting experience as much as I can... (just keep this as a friendship)
posted by HELL at 00:14