Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
Well, the show is over, and the things I must do is done. So how shall it be??? First of all, let's me tell a few things about the night. After I park the car, we went to the restraunt (paul K). After a few blocks, she started complaining about how her feets hurts because we walk too much and she was wearing high heel. So we started walking slowly, still we got to the restraunt on time. During the meal, she pointed out multiple times that she felt weird in a restraunt where there were obviously many homosexual men. Interesting, she seen to be uncomfortable w/ them around. As we finished up with dinner, I appologize about the long walk (0.7 miles according to the yahoo map) to the restraunt and ask the waiter to call a cab for us. So we took the cab back to the theatre. But the cab driver didn't have enough change for a $20 (what's up with that), so I had to run into the Burger King nearby and get change. The show was pretty good, it had some great moments (such as "Springtime to Hitler") and some bad moments (such as "Prisoner of Love"). She laughs but also expressed her boredom by looking at her pager (c'mon, who brings their pager to the theatre). Anyway, we discussed about the play and how she like parts of it but in general didn't think it was that great of a play. I actually agree with her on this. So we talk about stuff while driving back, and I asked her if she wants donut for breakfast, of course she said no 'cause of the fatty stuff :) Gave her the egg that my friend made for me. But she was complaining about the egg and didn't even want to take a look at it. I was kinda sadden by that:) Oh well, I guess it's my fault since I didn't realize the walk would hurt her feet and the I guess I just don't understand the whole high heel thing:)

So I guess it's over all a decent afternoon spend w/ her. Other than the usual complains and naggings from her, it went pretty smoothly. So now the burning question is what shall I do now that I had completed my promise to myself.

I shall obey the council's decision and put some sort of distance emotionally between myself and her. Well, that's going to take some good self control and I just hope I have enough mental toughness to do it. Still, I'll keep her as a friend and we still could go out once in a while. I need practice on dating (just as my workout partner pointed out, I don't date often before :...( I do need more fine dinning experience and better understand how to be with a girl. Then it is decided. I shall remove the lust/love factor from the relationship and maintain it as a strict mutual (i hope) friendship. Great, hopefully my mind will be calmer now that the decision had been made.
posted by HELL at 01:17