Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
Why is it that she never appreciate what I do for her? I stay late to help her, find cheap tix for her, take her to musical, gave her info & advice @ work, and that's only a few of hundreds & hundreds of time that I help her! And yet, I rarely get any signs of appreciation from her. I'm not mad about her relationship with the other guys but at the unfair treatment I got from her! I probably did more things for her than most people, I would literally drop what I was working on and rush to her side just to help her. And yet, usually I only recieve some not so genuine thank you! She would take other people out for their b-day, give them nice gifts (genuine gift), and me, I got nothing except a half-hearted lunch (or dinner-can't remember), which I paid for. She's really only using me, remember, she still hasn't thank me for the musical tix!

I think the reason I fell so quickly under her spell is because I haven't fell for anyone in 7 yrs. Also is because of Judy's wedding make me feel lonely. I fell so fast & so hard that I lost my usual subjectivity & my self-control.

The only solution @ the moment is to finish what I promised myself that I'll do for her. Tommorrow, I list some action items to be completed before I move on!

I am just really angry right now! The more I think about how she completely diss me while I'm there to help her but she's willing to answer page from other people! Fuck this shit! I need to calm down before I even talk to her again! April 18, I'll be free after that date :D Can't wait!
I had decided to stop contacting her until she make the 1st move. Hmm, that's been done before.

I am such a PATHETIC FOOL! A couple pages from her & I completely ignored how mean she was treating me. Let's see what happens next.

posted by HELL at 21:36