Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
One thing that I realized is this weekend is that I'm immature. I had been blaming her for everything without looking at myself and what I had done. Yup, it's the self-reviewing process that I must go thru now. (Look how much a nice hiking trip will do for me) I need to re-examine myself and how I truly feel and want.

As of now, I had determine that I'm still some maturity level away from being able to offer what she needed in a bf. So I'll continue work on that. I know this relationship will not work out the way I originally hoped, but the friendship can still continue. Time to explore oneself now.

When she called today, that's what I'm thinking too. So I didn't act overzealous like last friday night. Hopefully I can continue this trend. hehehe. Still though, I think it's her fault that she invited another friend to join our dinner which was supposely my reward for all the hardwork I did for her father's day gift. oh well, maybe one day I'll look past that, when I'm more mature...
posted by HELL at 16:08