Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
SAD SAD DAY My deepest fear had came true. She does have a boyfriend in Chicago, I had confirmed the worse fear which I had been kept in the deepest of my mind for the last year or so. Here is the excerpt from her sister's blog:

On Saturday, I had a fajita lunch with friends. It was my sister's bf's bday and he was turning the golden age of 25. The big surprise was that his brother and his gf flew into town just to spend it with him.

Haha, I'm so stupid. I should have know, all the signs point toward that. I should have listen to myself. Last year's chinese new year party, there was a conversation she had with her friend and I clearly though I heard her mention about her bf, and I just choose to ignore it. I'm sure there were other signs that she have a bf and I'm just so choosing to ignore it. Oh well, all I can do now is to chalk this off as a bad investment and move on. This time for real...

Ah, she didn't even had the decency to tell me the real reason behind her trip back to Champagne, her bf's birthday. She had to use her sister's b-day as an excuse. Thanks a lot. I'm not going to type too much right now, I'm sure it's understandable. Right now, I'm listening to Pink Floyd's "Lost for word" and "Marooned". Ah, how approriate... I'll need sometime to clear my head.

Well, I had decided for now I should pretend to be an idiot and act as if I don't know anything. Not sure wheater I'll be the same toward her but I won't confront her at the moment. I just want to see how long she's going to play me like a fool. Wonder if all her friends knew about it and just watching me acting like a fool for the last year. I can already feel the anger building inside me, will have to look for ways to release it soon.

One thing I now for sure is that my b-day is going to be very lonely, spend by myself, drinking tea and overlooking the ocean near sceneric route off hwy 92. SO SAD....

Side note: there's a wedding I must attend tomorrow, just a mental note, no alcohol, it's not good to drink when you're in a bad mood...


posted by HELL at 09:05