Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
Being working night shift for the last week so didn't really have time to update.

Actually thought about not updating the blog for a while since it's still going to be about her. So sad. While workingl the night shift, I provided her with pearl tea on daily basis. Just been treating her so nicely. Then she finally found some free time after the division BBQ on friday to go to Costco with me. Wow, how nice of her to do it, only after more than a week of pleading from me. sigh...

The rafting trip was very fun, even more interesting when we (me and my friend) spend sometime in the girls' tent talking about relationship and such. I found it to be relaxing to finally let go and talk about this with others, more so than ever. The trip is also very relaxing when we were on the river or star gazing. Even saw a few comets. But I didn't really make any wishes, knowing that there is only one wish I would made and it'll never come true.

Something bad happened last weekend, somebody came into my garage and took a few things from my car (the window was rolled down). I'm actually not that angry, just blame myself a bit for leaving the window down and my dad for leaving the garage door open. Other than that, not really feeling much else, actually a little excitement 'cause it gave me an excuse to buy new things. I'm definitly an expert in wasting money :)

Foud out on Monday that my invitation to dinner this week got turned down yet again. I must be very low on the priority list, probably just slightly above work (which she hated) and junk mail. She'll only do anything with me if she extremely bored and none of her high priority friends have time for her. I felt so under-appreciated... sigh... So sad that I'm on such low status with her after all that I have done. I sound like some old record, play over and over again to talk about how she just doesn't treat me right... I'm so tire of this, really should try to get out of this whole vicious cycle. But nooooo, here I am just won a bid on ebay to do a portrait for her, already asked for her studio pics. How pathetic am I???? I don't really know... sigh... I should just go plan for my trip to workout partner's wedding and also take off a day before my birthday.
posted by HELL at 22:31