Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
Working the night shift for the past week. Tried to provide her with pearl tea but got complaints of too much calorie and being too cold. So that's the end of the pearl tea per day trip. Well she's off to Chicago now for her friends' wedding. Supposely, she's going with one of her guy friend and his girl friend. Well, don't know how much I could actually trust. But it could be true. She could then spend the next three days with her bf since her sister is not in Champaign and she's leaving from there. Oh, as usual, I'm not the one to give her a ride to the airport or picking her up from the airport. I guess she'll have a lot of fun there. sigh... Don't know what to make of it anymore, can't tell if she's lying or not... Don't eve know if I care anymore.

Still haven't gotten an email response from the girl that my mom's friend set me up with, so I guess I'll send her another email tomorrow. Maybe I just don't have the lady's luck. Maybe it's my destiney to spend the rest of my short life alone... Listening to Johnny Cash's "hurt" really depressed me, but damn it's a great music video. Everyone should see it...

The other girl that my co-worker's girl friend briefly introduced me to "just couldn't get over the name '____'", according to my co-worker. What's wrong with my name? This is only the second time some one complained about my name. The last time was one of my college dorm mate talking about why the chinese always adopt an English name when they immigrate over the states. Well, in any case, I probably won't see her soon, so I don' really care. In fact, there really only a very selected few in the this world that I would care of their comment on me.

Just talked to one of those people today. My friend up in Oregon finally called me, after more than a year of not contacting me since she's been busy with the whole house thing (building a patio in their backyard, I heard). Well, have a nice 30 minutes talk with her. More like me complaining about the girl problem to her. It's nice to just hear some woman (she is married) telling me that I deserved better and I should just moved on and stopping helping the girl from work. She's right, I know that, but it's not so easy to actually reject her, I never seen able to do that to woman. Almost never, except for mom... But the only advice my friend could really give me is that I should just ignore the inconsiderate girl and look for someone better. Only if I could find someone right now, sigh... The good thing is that she's not here for a few days (she won't come back to work 'til thursday and I'm seriously doubt that she would see me on wedensday night, especially since she's landing around 11pm), I could use the time to think more about this. But my guess is nothing will change, at least not 'til afte my birthday, only a bit more than a month away...

"What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all "

Sang by Jonny Cash, excerpt from "Hurt" from American IV cd.
posted by HELL at 00:41