Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
WOW, a BIG WOW. So the secret she meant to tell me last thursday was that she had bought a house (still in the middle of closing stage). Her parents paid for the down payment for a town home in my city. So looked like she's in California for the long haul, and in my life too. Don't quite know how to take this right now? She's a good friend had I not wanting more and more from her, and expect return for all that I had done for her. hahaha... sigh... Well, at least she'll be living closer to me and will probably depend on me a bit more. And as usual, I offered my assitant in anything she needed to do for the new house. The way I see it right now, as long as I'm not pushing her to respond more, we're fine. It's when I'm expecting return for my hard work that I get heart-broken.

My friend took me out to Seto Sushi tonight to thank me for helping him move. wonder if she'll do the same for me. I guess we'll have to wait and see, my bet is that it'll be somewhere cheap 'cause she'll be complaining about the fact that she's poor and all that bs... sigh... Just like I asked her for the negative for her own studio shots to scan in, she never did bring them from Chicago, because her room had been repainted and stuff are in boxes. Ha, that never stopped me from getting the stuff for her. sigh... I just don't know, the only thing I know is that after my birthday, whatever dream and hope I had for this relationship will fade away. She'll be just another good friend. So I'll go into my 7year drought soon. So I shall be in peace soon... sigh... So life moves on, I move on (or return back to the beginning). So life will be just about myself once again. So I'll be a loner once again. So..................................... I shouldn't think too far ahead. Just enjoy life.
posted by HELL at 00:59