Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
Here I go again, a second-class citizen fighting for first class treatment, and FAILED!!! After helping her moving yesterday, I offered to help her unpack and take care some miscellaneous stuff today. She agreed, but then called me this morning and gave me the "oh you should relax today and I can do it myself" bullshit. I knew she's having other guys to help her out and this would happen. But stupid me, still got up early to pick up drill and caulking gun in preparation to help her out. What a fool!!! sigh... This is even after I promised myself that after my birthday that I would not fantasize about her and go out of my way to help her out. I just violated section 2 here. And I'm constantly violating section 1. sigh... I really need something else to ocuppy my mind. Maybe it's time to sign up for the personal ad for yahoo. hmmm, maybe I'll do that today.

On another sad note, I'm pretty sure now that I'll probably give her her birthday gift before I'll receive my, if I ever will get one. I must be a complete failure as a person (or very successful in falsely creating the image that I don't want my birthday to be celebrated), nobody even invite me out for dinner for my birthday (except for my family, which shouldn't count). No birthday dinner, no birthday gift, lonely day by myself, this is how my 27th birthday went. I'm so sad... : ( sigh......
posted by HELL at 18:11