Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
Finally got the dinner appointment set for sunday. Hurrah.

Actually went with her and her friends to the Haunted House of Santa Cruz. It was interesting, but I wasn't even a bit scared. And as usual I was the chauffeur. But all these stuff is kinda behind me right now as I read the following excerpt from her sister:


I really appreciate all the well wishes (through email and in person) and my surprises. My sister and her bf bought me this cookie bouquet of happy flowers and cutie bears from Cookies By Design to wish me happy thoughts in the coming days. Thank you. Positive thoughts, right?

Right now I'm just trying my best to deal with the situation. It's the third time that I had confirm that she have a bf (remember the old saying of "third time is the charm"). And from all the evidence I can gather, I'm pretty sure I know who he is. So the question is - shall I confront her with the knowledge or should I wait it out, knowing that a lot of long distance relationship fails. I'm leaning toward confronting her and really thinking hard about the timing and the technique of bring up this topic without hurting her too much (I still love her). Let's sleep on this and hopefully one day I'll come up with a brilliant way of doing it.

The thing that depress me right now is the fact that she still hadn't told me yet about her bf. Knowing how I feel about her, I think the moral thing to do is to let me know she have a bf and let me down easily. I really do believe that she's using my feeling for her to get the most out of me. The only drive behind my behavior right now is the understanding that at least I gave my best shot and learn from the situation (as I talked extensively about it in the entry from last tuesday). Ah the lesson of life, so precious, yet cause so much pain.

posted by HELL at 00:57