Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
Watch the niner football at Candlestick, great game. Too bad I was in the bathroom when they score the game-turning touchdown and score the game-ending touch down 14 seconds later while I'm in line for another beer :)

So I paged her as usual, to ask her to lunch. Then I got the usual "no" answer. I offered to buy pearl tea but she didn't want it 'cause she didn't want any "favor" from me. I wasn't happy about that, it's one misspoken sentence by me and she remembered for a very long time. And worse yet, it wasn't even my fault to begin with. But as unhappy as I was, I did the gentlemen thing and apologize for my bad behavior and ask if I can "do" anything to make it up. She told me she's not mad at me and there nothing I can "do" to make it up, but she does have a long memory. I was obviously upset with that, but still have enough self-control to apologize again and said I'll try my best to ask for forgiveness. So I was little surprise in the afternoon to get a page from her to ask to go to pearl tea. Her reason was to show me that she's bigger than me and she'll forgive me (btw, it's still her fault). I of course apologize and then went on to spend the next 4+ hours to keep her company while she's working just to make up one misspoke sentence :( And finally, she agree to go to dinner with me and complain about work as usual. It looks like everything is back to normal again. She still be mean to me, I treat her like a little princess. The only major difference is that any illusion that I previously have about our relationship had been shattered to thousand pieces. I'll continue my march away from her, in hope that one day I can use the legitimate excuse of "I have to go out with my girl friend". Hopefully, that day will be soon.

BTW, all the time she kept saying she didn't need "favor" from me, she continue to ask "favor" from me. I really think she have a reality check and see how much dependence she had on me. sigh... I wish there is a way for me to show her reality without breaking up the friendship I spend a lot of time and effort building.

posted by HELL at 00:27