Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
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So she had her holiday get-together party on saturday. She invited few friends over to have pot luck. Then it's off the gift exchange and I got some good marshmallow candies. The next thing, of course, is the game. My karaoke revolution and dance dance revolution was a big hit. Everybody enjoyed, lot of fun :) The only sad part was that the chicken wings we were preparing got rain out in the grill outside.

So the next day I went over to pick up the jacket she got for me from Banana Republic (i of course paid for it) and the grill. She had me stay to sing karaoke with her. Since I can't sing and refuse to do so, I got a great personal concert of her singing (she was in the choir at school). She did had good voice and love to sing. She really enjoy and addicted to the game. I'm glad she liked. We also play some DDR as a way of getting her some exercise :) Afterward, she had me stay for dinner and cooked the remaining chicken wings. It was a good meal, she even gave me some more of her delicious blue berry cheesecake left from the party. Oh the sad part was that she shown me some clothes she got on saturday morning from BR (obviously with another guy friend) and she mentioned that the male clothes are for her "friend". Yup, that's how she refer to her boyfriend.

I also saw some pics online of her and her boyfriend from the Thanksgiving break. So I now know who he is, what he does, what they do, more or less how they got to know each other, his cell #, and his body type. The only thing I don't know is how the both them see the relationship between the two. Is this a long term relationship? Considering they're still together after she's two and half year out of college, I would say yes. Considering the way she being muted on the whole subject and never once mention about him, I would I'm confused. She's sending mixed signal and I don't know what the hell is going on.

After another complain by me about how I'm spending Christmas holiday by myself, she invited me to Chicago yet again. She told me to tell her early if I'm going so she could "adjust her social schedule". I asked my co-worker, he doesn't think I should go. I got a earful from my sis about how I being letting this drag on for way too long. She's definitely right, I need to make a decision soon and just stick to it. So I'm leaning strongly toward not going but will wait 'til talking to my other friend before making the final decision. Personally, I don't want to go 'cause it's only going to make it harder for me to let go as planned. But then again, I don't want to have any regret. So hard to decide. Damn...

Oh yeah, wonder if I finally will get my b-day dinner this saturday. She mention that we could do it then but not sure if it'll get postponed like this last week (one of the lame excuse for sunday cancellation was that she had too much leftover and want to finish it first). Right now, I'm just not holding on to too much hope and thinking that if it happens, it'll be a great surprise for me :) sigh... Sis is right, I need to get off my butt and take care this within the year.
posted by HELL at 00:51