Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
Well, it finally came. My co-worker started really complain about the amount of help that I had being offered to her, to the point where they believe it actually interfered with my own job. Even though I disagree, I must admit that helping her does force me to put my own work on a lower priority. This is REALLY BAD!!! I got to better control myself. I felt like I'm addicted to drug, only seeing her and spending time w/ her (even though I had to suffer quite a bit of physical abuse) will relieve my uneasyness. sigh... And this is more than a year after I'm supposely gave up on her already. I'm being just so stupid. My friends have been trying to get me to move on, looking at other people, but I'm just being a pathetic fool and stubborn idiot. Just couldn't give it up :( sigh...
posted by HELL at 00:17

 
She's going back to Illinois for a week in June, supposely going to friend's wedding. Probably will visit her bf and celebrate his birthday early. How sad :( Well, I choose to endure this hardship (even after multiple friends had warn me and try to drag me away from her). Even worse when I read what I wrote over a year ago about how I'm supposely give up on her LONG LONG time ago!!! Don't know, I should really try to re-focus myself on something else. sigh....
posted by HELL at 23:18

 
Looks like I'm only useful to her when there is nobody else. Ask her if she need a ride last night and got a "no" for answer, which is fine. But this morning I found out that she did get a ride from somebody else and she just decided to lie to me. I was not a happy camper at all, and I let her know how I felt right-of-way. She apologized to me but then immediately demand that I help her with her work. And when I ask why don't she just ask her friend to help her out instead of me. She just calmly brush my comment aside and insist on me helping her. For the wimp that I am, I just accept my duty and help her. But at least I let her know how I felt and the fact that IF she continue to do this sort of thing, she won't have me as a friend for long. I kinda stood up to her, right... sigh...
posted by HELL at 22:08

 
I was so drown in my own imagination that I forgot she told me that there is a possibility of a promotion for her today. Maybe that's what her sister is referring to. If that's the case, then congrats to her as well. And I won the bet (I been on losing streak lately). If not, then I'll be depress for a while longer.
posted by HELL at 00:04

 
"Congrats goes to my sister. Amazing and polished as usual. But did you expect any less?" This is the line her sister had in her blog, wonder what that means. She's supposely sick and staying home. Hmmm, I wonder what' happening? I guess the worst that could happen is the bf proposing to her. Won't be that much more worse for me as compare to now. I'm nothing but a working slave for her (sadly, this isn't even half-joking). sigh.... :(

posted by HELL at 23:23

 
I guess she likes to watch baseball more than Lion King. But the thing that gets me mad is the fact that she won't even tell me the truth. sigh... I have to find out from other people and I still have to act as if nothing happens and be the gentleman that I being taught to be. How unfair is this world...
posted by HELL at 00:49

 
Looks like I won. Here goes another session of apology again :(
posted by HELL at 23:04

 
Here goes another one of those stupid bet with myself again. If she calls me this weekend, then I'll have to do 1000 push-ups. I lost last time, but I have supreme confidence that I'll win this one. But isn't it sad that I still play this silly game with myself, four months after what I thought should have been the end of all.
posted by HELL at 23:02