Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
Being working hard the last week or so. And did got drunk last saturday but was forced to work on Sunday by the management who couldn't wait for one extra day to get the data. sigh... 'tis the life a slave engineer. I definitely need to think of some new career path.

Her emails are far and few between, probably average 1 reply for 3-4 of my email sent. Oh well, atleast she's replying, I guess. Sometime I REALLY think getting to know her is the biggest mistake I made in the last two+ years. My friend (D-chick) sent me a song named "out of reach" by Gabrielle which reflect how she felt right now after finally closed everything with her ex but also kinda fit my situation as well. Here's the lyric:

Out Of Reach"

Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be

Catch myself
From despair
I could drown
If I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK

But I was
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be

So much hurt,
So much pain
Takes a while
To regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you

But now I'm
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach,
So far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be

Out of reach,
So far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there
For me

Actually reading through the lyric really makes me think that this song REALLY fit my situation. I should learn from her and be strong. Getting over someone is not easy but I'm sure I been thru tougher situation and preveil before. So I will have confidence in myself to walk thru this "valley of death" and emerge as a stronger more confident person! Such strong sounded conviction, I think this is the strongest yet! We'll see how this one will fare, wish me luck :)
posted by HELL at 23:19