Everybody always said ''til the day hell freezes over''. But has it ever freeze over? Contact me if you want to discuss anything hellfreezeover666@yahoo.com . Not that anybody actually read this blog. I'm just as lonely as ever. From a pathetic fool in HELL!!!

 
Well, there goes that. I guess I won't be making that Europe trip after all. D told me that some of her friends convinced her that it may not be a good idea for a guy and a girl to spend time in a foreign country for a week. Hmm, who are those friends, I would like to talk to them, in private (knuckle cracking). Guess there won't be a chance for me to confess my love for her now:p But no matter, I'll still have her as a good friend, sort of in a weird way. At this stage in my life, considering how mess up my personal love life is, I don't mind just having a friend I can talk to and can be super relax in front of her :)

C came back and immediately created a scene for me at work. She was talking about her trip and remembered the talk she had with her ex. Her ex was saying that he'll be lucky to find someone half as good to him as she was. The thing that immediately came to my mind was that she must've treated him like a thousand times better than me. If I find someone who treat me half as bad as she does, I'll still be used and abused like a piece of used rug. Sigh... I'm always doing things for her and I wonder how often does she ever stop and think about all that I had done. I had been hoping that someday she'll show her appreciations, but those moment are really few and far between. Well, at least she treated me to lunch. That's a first in like 6 months. But it's okay, I already recognize my place with her long time ago. No point in continue to dwell on this any more. With some help of fast driving and/or jogging in the cold dark night, I should regain my calmness.

Why is it that I'm always more optimistic with everything that's not C-related. Now, only if I can deal with C-related issue in a such a patient manner. Sleepy right now, will do more update tomorrow. I hope.

posted by HELL at 23:24